“I had forgotten him. I had forgotten that he was there. He could wait. The others could not wait. So I had left him and forgotten him.”

Even as she states her reasoning behind forgetting about the blind man it is clear she feels a tremendous amount of guilt and sees her thought process as a justification she doesn’t quite see logic in anymore. “So I had left him and forgotten him,” isn’t meant to make logical sense and she knows that. It’s supposed to be the true cold consequences of her actions. It’s supposed to be a judgement she passes on herself as she wakes up from her trance. She says “It didn’t do to think,” quite frequently. We see other interactions where she could have broke down but she doesn’t allow herself to think throughly over her actions or in better words the results of her actions. This is the first time she thinks in more depth about her actions and the direct result they had. Normally she would simply say “He could wait. The others could not wait.” but in this moment she is continuously repeating how she forgot him and how she left him. This is one of the few times she directly refers to herself as “I” instead of speaking about herself as “that woman.” She is herself and she left someone and forgot someone. And that realization is now breaking her. Elizabeth mentioned how the title “Blind” is not only a reference to the blind solider but also a reference to the nurse who has become almost “blind” to her gruesome reality and her own trauma from the War. I think the blind man holds a special place for her because he cannot see and because of that there is a veil of ignorance or innocence to him that she wants to protect. He doesn’t see the brain falling out of the man’s head, he doesn’t see the boy dying in her arms, he doesn’t see the man’s knee blown out, he doesn’t seek the naked man having an aneurysm. And I think when the blind man says “I thought I was all alone” she snaps out of it because he is both right and wrong and she realizes she hasn’t been blind to all these horrific scenes yet she has been responding to them as if she were blind to them. Upon the actual blind man questioning the surroundings she is like OMG he doesn’t know whats happening right now but I actually do even though I pretend to be ignorant towards it. we are alone even with all these people around we are alone I am alone I am scared omg I touched brains today omg etc etc. I think she was a pressure cooker that finally popped. And I want to give her a hug so badly.